I'm glad that you posted - a lot of times just posting or journaling helps me feel better. Is there something else the doctor can give you besides lithium? I was given Abilify and told to watch what I eat... I am over weight, and I do need to watch what I eat and I do - I eat right but don't seem to be losing any weight - ugh exercise is hard for me as I'm so depressed I never have the energy to exercise... It's all I can do to keep a clean house and keep the wash all done. If I don't my husband gets really upset with me.... I don't like it when he gets upset - he belittles me and it's then all I can do to not try to do something stupid... So my house is clean and the clothes are washed. And he's happy.... When I do lose weight - he brings home fattening items that he knows I shouldn't eat, but I end up eathing it because I'm afraid he'll get upset, as he spent the money for it.... I can't win, but I can lose...