Justaittleparanoid is COMEPLETELY Right. Stop now, before it ends in missery. Yes, u hate yourself now, but forgive yourself, and then don't do it again (EVER) no matter how much you want too. Stop now while you are ahead of all that is going on.

FYI Finding something else to do instead of is a Great Idea now, to get other habits ingraned in your head, before the SI gets there first. hint, hint, .