I don't know what is going on with me these past few days. Saw T on Monday and have been going downhill ever since. I have been crying on an off all day today and yesterday. This isn't at all like me at all. I think losing my other supportive person is catching up with me. I thought I was handling it well, but now i just cry and cry. I really have trouble with change. I have been feeling like someone else. I'm just not myself, like I'm not all the way inside my body. I have made so much progress in the past few years and now i am wondering if I will ever be any better. I am so scared of living. I called T yesterday and she helped me to stop crying and get myself to a work related function. Like I said, this is not me at all. I don't usually cry so much outside of session. I usually save tears for in session and manage to keep myself together outside. I feel like i am losing my sense of identity. Like no one knows me, not even me! Does anyone else ever feel this way. Please help, i don't know if i should call T again, or maybe i could just write it all out. Thanks for listening.