I make the calls to schedule people to come in to the charity I volunteer at. Tuesday I called a lot of people, spending hours, and got several people scheduled for every day next week. Last week I scheduled the ones coming in this week. There is only one person covering the mornings MWF so I sent her the list of clients with their phone numers scheduled for Friday and Monday. She emailed back and said she wasn't going to be there on Friday and would call the people to reschedule. I waited Tuesday evening, Wednesday, she didn't write to say she had rescheduled. Finally late Thursday afternoon I called her to check if she had done it... and she hadn't so I had to do it. I was able to talk to one of the people and had to leave a message for the other. I hate that because most of them are coming from out of town so coming into town and finding us closed is a problem.

Anyway, she knew in advance that she wasn't going to be there so why didn't she just tell me so I wouldn't schedule anyone for those days??? She knows I schedule the people. Why leave it for me to have to explain to these people??? She didn't even seem to care that she hadn't done it. Why does it bother me so much?? I have become very anxious, worried, upset, skin crawling, worried about everything and anything, upset stomach, feeling stupid/inferior. And, worried that I'll return on Tuesday only to have people mad at me for us being closed. I can't seem to rein in the anxiety. Even though I did everything I could, I can't let it go. I continue to worry about if they came today. I don't even know how to explain how worried and anxious I feel. This wasn't my problem but it became my problem.