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kathyanita said:
the split where its the name and rooting for the disaster you know, and the impossible conscience about reconciling to opposite ways of thinking and allowing them all to make noise. . that wears you out too

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oh goodness is it ever exhausting to deal with such strife within one's own head.

there is nothing horrible about you ka. what you express sounds very normal for anyone who survived as you had to survive. you're allowed to have the thoughts you have without guilt.

(((a very nonhorrible KA)))
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