((((WePow))))

I am sorry you are feeling this deep stuff once again. But you have done a wonderful job over the last few months and Mick has come on board with the work she is doing. It is all a process and while we sometimes can take a giant leap it feels, reality of what exactly we have endured does not leave and reminds us in many ways. It is not that you are not making progress, you are figuring out where to go from where you are.

To us, you have shared your path and we can watch the transformation you are going through and I know we feel blessed to be a part of it. You have given us inspiration that you do not even know of. It is going to take time for it took years for all of this to happen and it is not by any stretch something we did lightly. There are very specific ways we all are intertwined within so it could be safe for us to live.

Sometimes we can do something that feels so awsome but it seems like it comes and leaves almost as fast. I think that is because it takes time for that to filter through our system and for everyone to feel the effects of what is taking place. Remember all within are learning something new and trying to understand how we can be safe now. All they have known is protecting us and many times still work in that mode.

I know for us, today we had a major breakthrough. Though extremely exhausted, somehow we are scared again tonight. Within afraid of all the wants of trying to change but also afraid of something bigger than we are and that is of the truth of how deep all this runs and it cannot be overcome quickly. Our guard is up and she is afraid for telling.

Time is what we need to allow ourselves as we learn new ways to cope, ways we have never been allowed to even think like and never could we have imagined that it could be safe. We have been working in a protecting mode all these years and we are asking them to what?????? Though the hope within is that we can change the fact remains that for so long it was just a fleeting hope that nothing could happen again.

So each day taking a step forward no matter how little it may feel, to each of our systems it is like taking a giant step that somehow leaves little trails we have to step back to wipe up the overflow so that if this does not work we will not forget where we were that somehow brought safety for so long. It is all a work in progress that not only them but we have to face.

Sometimes leaving that place where for so long was our only safety and a known for us all is hard. Wondering if it is really going to be okay or are we going to have to dodge back for cover. As each day we progress we make the path a little clearer and the path a little wider for ourselves to be able to feel a little safer than the day before. Stepping back sometimes yet not staying as long as before.

As the safety feels a little clearer and more evident maybe the times we seem to step back shows more trust and a willingness to go a little deeper and allow even ourselves to look where it was once just too dangerous to even think about looking. And those within are learning to trust us a little more with that too. We left for a reason, we could not be there and still make it, so we buried things so deep so that they would never surface. But know we are being able to look at the stuff we never could even imagine.

We think you all are doing a wonderful job. One that is moving forward even in the step backs. You all are looking a little deeper. The not knowing or understanding would make total sense as we never thought we would get to this point. But you have and you are all stepping with caution yet stepping with a sense you have not stepped before.

Thank you for sharing your jouney with us and for letting us be a part of it. We know how hard it is and of the back and forths, but knowing that we never have to step back to that beginning place again. (Not sure we could as for us anyways--they are feeling pretty powerful having s voice for the first time). And that is progress no matter how small or big the step may be. I do not know if we have made any sense or not. We think you are doing just what you are suppose to do and are right where you are suppose to be.

Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps