(((Tay))) I want to give some heartfelt hugs. Losing a support person, or any person from our lives can trigger awful feelings from childhood. Even losing someone that you sorta want to lose can bring up these feelings for me.

I like your idea of writing it all out. Even just writing and writing and not censoring anything. See where it takes you and what it might bring up.

Im am so sorry you are sad and going through this now. Can you schedule an extra session with T? ANything you can do for some temporary extra contact?