Looks like a mixed message. These are the rules as I have read them: work, pay rent, go to church every Sunday without fail or get punished, there will be no healthy discussion about anything...ever, it is okay for dad to get mad when he deems necessary, it is okay for dad to threaten you with physical punishment because it works. We know it works because it is one of your fear buttons...how do we know it is one of your fear buttons? Because we put it there because it works. Now on the rent thing...you have to pay rent because otherwise you would move out on your own and just what would the congregation and the town think of dad then?! That about right? And uh this environment is safe for you? It is not safe, it is just what you are use to. Oh, and the most important rule is if you leave or get any professional help, you can never come back. Uncle Sam helped me out but maybe someone can come up with some options. This one is too close to my past to be objective about. I will be watching this thread. Hugs, NF