Fantastic job on not beating yourself up today sj!!!!

The good thing about T's in that they are used to such things and generally deal with such as part of their jobs. Hard not to worry but there really isn't any need to.

It can be so weird to have people care when one is used to handling life solo. Many still use the 'I'll leave you first so you can't hurt me' coping mechanism. It is common. Takes time and practice to allow yourself to let people care about you w/o feeling like you have to push them away or run away yourself.

We're pleased you are a work in progress so even if you're not happy with who you are right now you're working very hard at becoming the person you want to be. Good for you for taking action and doing the work!!