I have posted before. but,it's been awhile ,..my b/f and I of almost 5 yrs have been on and off so many times ..I moved 3000 miles to be with him and my kids and I have been everywhere but with him..I'm very confused right now because Im not sure how I feel about things,he has called me saying he wants to get back together and I too would love to start over and put the past behind us,,but I feel in order to do that I feel I need to know that he is truly sorry for putting the kids and I through so much and that it will change..lastnight we were talking on the phone and I told him how Im afraid to get hurt again and how my family think Im setting myself up for a big heartache,,he got really mad and said they dont know the whole story and shouldnt blame him because it wasnt all his fault ,,what Im trying to come to grips with is ,,,Am I wrong for feeling I need a apology from him in order to feel we can get past this ? I moved 3000 miles to be with him ..I'm really upset about it but I love him so much or I wouldnt still be here ..If Im wrong in my thinking how can I overcome the hurt that I feel? he never wants to talk about what has happened only to kiss and make up but its not as easy for me because the past is what got me where I am now ,,I dont know, forgive me for this crazy post..I guess I just needed to get it off my chest ,,take care ,hope everyone is happy and doing good..thanks Bee