I was talking to someone about how miserable I was (blah, blah, blah ) and I said "I just want to wake up one day and be normal." I don't wanna do ANYTHING about it, it just has to magically happen. (For the record, I am a very mature person...)
And that person in told me "That's the point of getting help. So that someday, you can."
Your fear is just another thing trying to swallow you up. Please, please, please get help so that you can wake up one day and NOT FEEL LIKE THIS.
(((((((No_longer_sane))))))))