My session went pretty well. We talked a little bit about the message. She said it was a beautiful way to say what I was trying to say. I told her, "I wanted you to know what it said, but I'm not sure I feel comfortable talking about it right now." I also told her I posted about it on PC and obsessed about it a lot after I sent it. I think this IS me talking about it. It's not a direct conversation, but this certainly gave her information about my feelings for her.

This session went pretty deep and we talked about sense of self and how defining myself has been such an enormous struggle. My OCD and my social anxiety have died down a TON while I've been seeing her, but we never even combated it directly. And during session I think we finally pieced together the cause of my major meltdown back in June, which I'm finally crawling out of. It's pretty neat because I don't think it was ever biological for me. It is so clear now, what triggered this episode, and how changing other things in my life to be more congruent with who I am has cured me of what afflicted me back then. I really was losing my mind completely last year from June through September. Now we are going to work on my sense of self so I *know* when I'm lying to myself instead of being blindsided by it.

Anyway, so we talked about important stuff, but we didn't get into the transference discussion. I think this works better for us. She is so wonderful. She went over my session time by 45 MINUTES last night. But she always goes overtime with me. I'm pretty sure she really likes me. She says she loses track of time with me.