I am in the middle of an unbelievable mess right now, and it is kicking my anxiety in HIGH GEAR.

Three days ago, on Wednesday, a young lady came to spend labor day weekend with me and my family. I've known her and her family for quite a while, and have looked forward to meeting her finally. She flew in Wed morning, I picked her up, and we had a great day that day. Thursday morning, we ran some errands, had lunch, and then came home. And at 1pm, all hell broke loose. She totally dissociated. . .completely. Almost like catatonia. She stayed this way for over 13 hours before it finally broke. I ended up having to take her to the ER b/c she was cutting and mutilating herself very badly, and I couldn't get through to her. Her mother had given me a consent form "just in case" for the weekend, so I able to attain treatment for her. She ended up being checked into the children's psych unit (she is 17) and since then, it's only gotten worse.

Apparently the staff is accusing me of having some sort of "romantic interest" in her b/c of a note I left for her, which basically told her to keep her chin up, work the program, blah blah blah, and that I signed, "Love Gracey." They also feel it was "wrong" for me to stay with her through the ER stay, and come up to the unit and get her tucked into bed. I'm a mother for Christ's sake. . .that's what mama's do, even if the kid isn't theirs. I'm old enough to BE this child's mother, although that is not my role in her life.

Now, the staff is wanting me to come in tomorrow morning to meet with them about all of this. This really pisses me off b/c through this whole adventure, they haven't come up with a treatment plan for her, they aren't letting her participate in group, and they aren't working with her mother, who flew down to be here. Her mom was 18 hours away when this all took place, WHAT was I supposed to do? Drop her off at the ER and just leave her? I am feel very attacked here, with this RETARDS and their insinuations. I'm starting to second guess everything I did, and my relationship with this child. . .wondering AM I being inappropriate? Are there some lesbian overtones to the note I sent her?

Somebody help. . .