I never realized that I self-injured until I came here. I have head-banged and smacked or slapped myself for as long as I can remember. I grew up so frustrated with myself and feeling stupid and inferior, I would bang my head to try and 'slap some sense into myself'. I never knew it was really self-injurious, it was just my way of expressing frustration.
In January, I started feeling really overwhelmed and depressed. I was mad at myself...furious with my failure and inability to 'fix' myself. I was yet again, frustrated by myself and my 'solution' was to hurt myself. And so I started cutting. I don't cut deeply, they all look like I rough-housed with a kitten. I cut almost everyday for a variety of reasons. While I would never need stiches for my cuts, I have cut my hands, arms, wrists, legs and torso and people have noticed. But no one would ever believe that I would do that to myself, so for now, I am safe. But for how long?