I'm feeling really anxious with my T lately. Almost like I'm scared of her. I know there is no logical reason for me to feel afraid. I feel like I'm going back and forth between feeling like I trust her and feeling afraid. Feeling afraid of what she really thinks of me. But I don't feel like I can bring it up again. She seems to think that everyone (read: my professor) would be open to hearing about my MH issues and thinks I am overreacting. I'm terrified that he might put two and two together and get four. And that would ruin my ability to get a letter of recommendation from him. She doesn't see the same problem. I don't know. I feel just all mixed up. I want to trust her and go into new territory, but at the same time it scares me. I feel like I'm resisting working on stuff I need to work on. All the stuff scares me. Maybe I'm projecting my fear of what I need to work on to my T. IDK.