I think part of the problem is that I know I shouldn't feel so bad about this stuff. It isn't bad. And I don't think it is bad in other people. But I feel so bad about my own stuff. I want to feel safe with my T. I want to be able to sit with her and feel safe. In a way I don't feel safe the rest of the time. Safe in a way where I don't have to worry so much about feeling safe, that it is just there. But instead i have to deal with all these bad feelings.