I guess I was editing my post while you were posting, tree.
I have been knitting so much, trying to keep busy, trying to be distracted. Watching stuff online (movies, tv shows, whatever), smoking, eating, cleaning, crying, knitting, knitting. I don't know what else to do. It's important to me that people know I tried. It's why I called my T. I'm trying everything I can. She didn't really hear me or didn't care or has heard it all too many times before, but I did try.