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I'm not sure that she wants to hear the bad stuff. The stuff I feel inside. I was trying to tell her about how screwed up I felt inside (though I was totally projecting it onto her.) And she was like "STOP! Don't say that." She went on to say that she didn't mean not to say what I was feeling, but not to say bad things about myself. It makes sense, but at the same time I can't seem to stop the bad thoughts. I don't want to tell her I'm still having bad thoughts. I feel like I'm disappointing her, like I'm failing. But don't know if this is just another way to avoid all the other stuff. I hate this going back and forth. I wish I could just trust, but I just get hurt when I trust.