I understand. I'm not scared of dying either. I don't want to die just cause I know I have to live to get the answers I want, but it's not a horrible thing either to happen. I know a lot of people have strong emotions about death so I've kinda felt like something must be wrong with me, but I've lived in fear all of my life of many things, death is the furthest from my mind! lol I'm sorry I don't have words of wisdom I just wanted to share my thoughts on the matter.