yes, have a T... don't think T can help this though...don't trust enough... don't trust anyone... wife told 5 people about my problem when begged her not to tell anyone... so scared...don't know why... she's going to leave... she already said she would... dont know if imagined that or not... so scared... don't want her to leave...she's not happy and don't want to keep her from happy just cause we can't have it... god what to do... don't know what to do don't know what to say... still so scared...