My Mum died late August last year. The last few weeks I have felt bits of sadness here and there. Not a lot of sadness for a lifetime. On her last night I stayed with her. I haven't talked much about it. The crappy bits where she was in pain. The good bits when we tried singing together. She couldn't even speak. I want to speak with my T about it.

Most of our lives we were both prickly with each other. Truly not much of a relationship existed. I have DID so most of my emotions are buried. My T says its okay to feel anger. I am still looking under rocks and trying to find it. Mum and Dad (dec) both had crappy lives. Just how do I grieve for something I never had?