monty,

ugh!!! so sorry about the horrible experiences of abuse as teen in psych hospital. similar but different experience here so completely understand your coping method of sitting there until release.

T knows your very valid fears so his mentioning hospital must be rather serious given past history. very glad to read of plans for calling and checking in with T and with back up T. safety plans are good things when needed and sounds like it is needed right now.

your honesty with T is very very good.

keep talking with T, H and back up T (if needed) as needed.

is there anything you can take for sleep? lack of sleep makes everything seem worse when insomnia hits. take insomnia out before it takes you out!

keep taking care.