I went to town to have my CBC drawn for my clozapine. While I was downtown I went to Elder Beerman to buy some socks because the used Ariat shoes I got from ebay are a tad big. So while I was there I found a pretty shawl with teal, purple and gold threads that would look nice with a purple shirt I got for Christmas. I stopped by Estee Lauder and bought some new nail polish to match the shawl. So I looked pretty good when I went to my appt better than I do on the average day but then again on the average day the only ones who see me are my son, horse and sometimes people in fast food drive throughs. So my point is that how I looked to my Pdoc for my appt was not really representative of how I have been since our last appt three months ago.

I walked into his office and he said, you smell nice; I had put some Light Blue lotion on while waiting, a very "soft" scent. He then asked, so have you killed anybody lately? No, not lately, but I'm working on it. He knows my sarcasm well and we often have conversations that border on bizarre but we share an odd sense of humor.

I told him my sleep was erratic and I had slept from 7am to 10am that day and was feeling decent. I told him I have been sleeping longer intervals but some days I sleep less and said I think I am in mixed now. He laughs and says, ya think? You have bipolar? I told him I was still not completing some important things like filing my federal taxes and procrastinating everything. But that is pretty typical; the reason I found Psychcentral was I wanted help for procrastination. He asks about my son and my horse. I told him my son was sometimes feeding him because I have no energy but think I may have SAD and hope spring will help.

So pretty much we left all meds the same. Not surprising because I don't think there is a pill for being in a funk or procrastination. I am not terribly depressed or manic at the moment. Just not very productive.