My story is a kind of wired but here it is: I was only child, I grew up with my mom and gran parents. I kept in touch with my father, but only on weekends. Any way. My childhood memories are mostly at home. playing by myself. I didn't have many friends. and because I was only child, I was extremely overprotected by my mother and grand parents. Then, my mom left the country and I stayed with my granparents for around 6 years. I think I was well educated, I never coursed and I was like a porcelain. That was my problem. I would not get into fights.. I just couldn't hurt other people, i could not punch anyone in the face just because I thought I would hurt them, and this made me become the target of countless bullies. and because I was the tallest kid in the room, this made me an interesting enemy for every kid who wanted to annoy me. Well, I grew up, and I turned to be the funny guy. always telling jokes, and enjoying making people smile. I know for fact that my personalyty became very atractive to women, who always tought of me as the funny nice gentleman. but I failed at passing from that point, almost none of them ever regarded me as a boyfriend. Anyway, I hated my life. I had the chance to move to the US, and start from scratch. I began as a junior in an American High school. Well, again I was the funny foreign guy. I made many female friends. And I always disturbed me that I almost had no male friends. Well, as the time went by, I got to know few guys, and I still being the funny guy. but Even thought I know that is hard to be the new guy in HS, It always made me sad being lonely and not having real friends (you like people to hung out with) I got tons of "friends" well, people that likes me and think I am nice, but these friendships most of the time don't go further than hi and bye in the school's hallways/ Anyway, I want to change, I want to stop being the funny guy. I want to make friends, party. have a girlfriend. A normal life. Somepople has called my inmature. but I don't feel that way, I do nothing but blame my ****** childhood. And it really annoys me. I need help. I want a normal life. I