I have the NOS on my dx as well. I relate so very closely to the original post and how specific and all too personal and at the same time how "universal" to trauma/abuse surviving it all is. . .also I espescially appreciate the urgent need to write it down before you lose the ability and awareness to think your thoughts, or have access to your own "head" and so I am gratefull in a way and satisfied somewhere at my core to read the post and "know" it as my own experience well defined. . .
Thanks