I will try.... I had set all those boundaries Lynn but he just pushed them aside. He let his friends come in and stay over even though he knew it was against our agreement. He knows I will internalize and isolate to pretect myself from the effects of letting my rage go.

I will try to speak to him again but it will mean I will have a total breakdown of emotions and then I...we... him and I.... will pay big time for the effects of the downward spiralling. I will try to stop the spiralling but I always try and seldom succeed when it gets to this point. Days will be lost if I start to spiral.

I know it must just sound like an excuse but..... arggg... okay I will try and just have to deal with the consequences.