It is so sad when our spouses think we can just "snap out of it." It is not like we are actors and can just step in and out of character. My only advice is if you can not afford professional help right now try to surround yourself with supportive people. Even that can be difficult when you don't know anyone like me. I just recently tried to meet people to make friends but when you are depressed it kills your motivation. I wish you the best. Peace - Dennis