OMG.... they were watching the big game. Had I not been so lost in this crap I would be enjoying the game with them..... instead I am stuck in my self made hell hole missing out on the big moment of the Olympics. What an fn' looser I am. I ran away from the room consumed with tears and self hate and am now just too done to think. Everyone I know is wrapped up in this moment and I am sitting here crying wrapped up in myself. Unbelievable!!! What a fringin' waste of air and space am I. Sorry just too much right now. I am so done. Just need to hide somewhere somehow. so ashamed and embarrassed. I am a nut job to the highest degree. How can anyone take life or themselves so seriously. what a joke.