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Originally Posted by jbmomg
"how do you take it?" When t says really nice things to me i often sit and wonder "how can you just f**king sit there and lie to my face, and this is after 10 years with the same person...but a little tiny piece of me wants to believe what he says so much, but don't want the pain if he is just lying
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You know, I really believe that my T wouldn't lie to me. He has shown me before that he will be honest about things that are difficult, and he has gently refused to say things that I have asked him to say that he doesn't agree with (mostly things about little Tree and the CSA).
But, oh my gosh, it is SO HARD to sit there and take it when he says kind things. It's hard to open up and let them in...honestly, if I can just stay there and not dissociate it feels like a success.
((((((((((jbmomg))))))))) I bet after 10 years of working together, your T wouldn't lie to you.
T and I have been working on this "10%" thing. I try to believe the new thoughts 10% of the time and just allow myself to hold the old thoughts for the other 90%. It's less overwhelming for me and less likely to send me into a tailspin. The idea is that once I get used to 10%, I'll be able to try 20%, and then 30% and so on. I wonder if you could believe what your T says is true just 10% of the time? What if you really let yourself OWN the kind things he says 1 out of every 10 times he says something?
