Heidu,

I am so sorry to hear that you have taken such a turn for the worse. But I certainly understand...I have also run into that "I've been trying to be ok for so long, I'm too tired to keep trying" feeling. This week, my therapist asked why I kept trying if I was so tired...and as we talked, it came out that it was because the alternative was so much worse. So I will ask you to keep that in mind with me...and keep trying, because giving up would be so much worse.

When I was feeling bad, you struggled through it with me, and didn't give up on me. And I can't even begin to tell you how much that meant to me. So please, don't give up on yourself...and let us help you through this, the way you have helped so many here.

*hugs*
mj