Keep posting here, keep telling us whats happening for you, keep talking to us, we are all listening. Most of us understand those feelings. Thank you for writing them down as I for one have trouble articulating them when they come to cloak my mind. We are listening, we are hearing your pain, your bewilderment, your panic. I'm sorry to sound apathetic...but these intense emotions will pass.

I'm sorry you are experiencing such confusion...keep writing it down, keep expressing it, we are listening.

kp