Hi, Definitely not alone in any of that. I guess we all missed something in growing up. Somehow they forgot to show us how to deal with our pain. It's really hard to learn how once you're already an adult and have been doing it other ways for so long.
I haven't really told many about what I do. Only my T and nutritionist basically. A couple of friends kind of know I do something, but I won't talk about what I actually do. Oh, yeah, and my surgeon of all people, he figured it out from the marks on my arm. Forgot to hide them one day and his nurse turned me in. As far as the family, they started in one day on someone on the news that was cutting, let me know where I'd stand if I ever confessed, so I keep my mouth shut there.
So anyway, there are many people here dealing with some of the issues you mentioned, and a few dealing with everything you mentioned.
Take care of yourself as best you can. Quay