You have described something that i do almost daily.All i iknow is that it makes me feel so crazy and scared. I tell my doc and it's usually just "lets up your dosage and see if that helps".......well that doesn't help and i've been doing this since i was little. sometimes i look at it as a gift because the alternative is far too scary. hang in there, maybe we're the cool ones. i love your quote at the end....did you write that?