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Old Mar 01, 2010, 07:52 AM
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Originally Posted by moonsapocalypse View Post
I'm hoping that they do change but am expecting that they won't.

I don't want to tell them the stories, I don't want them to know about what I've done. They'd feel terrible and

no matter how much I hate them for what they did to me, it made me strong. It made me who I am today. I may not seem strong but if it weren't for them I wouldn't have been forced to grow up so quickly.

I've handled things in a less than healthy way and completely admit to it, but it's all I know.

I don't really know how to explain it but I hate them, disrespect them, wish they weren't my parents

but they are my parents and for that I am thankful I guess.
This is definitely an issue that you will need to work through. I can understand how you can love them and hate them. You have good reasons for both. You will work through this.

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The thing is I feel a bit threatened that he's coming into my family life too. I don't want him to see how they treat me. When I walk into my parents' house I'm a completely different person and I don't want him to see that either. I have to be strong and act like I don't care when I'm there even when I feel weak. They'll yell at me otherwise and revert to name calling.

Would be really protect me or would he run away again like he did before?

I actually want to go back to therapy but can't until I get home. The only thing is I'm not sure if I could really share all of this to my T, at least not right away. I do not feel comfortable sharing with her but well if I don't I'm not really sure what will happen.
Wow, I'll bet his coming out made you feel really good! How is it going?

If you keep working on opening up in therapy, you will do it. Opening up is essential for healing. You will get there.
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