Perhaps.... since I also have a gut wrenching belly ache today.... no doubt he is stressed by my insanity and the roller coaster he is forced to ride with me but I think it is also overtired. He stalled getting to bed last night and had too many late nights over the weekend. I tried to shut things down early each night but again stalls until it was hours later than I wanted. He woke in the night complaining of a belly ache so no surprise school was off the agenda today. I know I should have more compassion but it just seems like we can't get ahead of the game. He has missed so many days this year and is failing in school as a result of not doing the catch up work. Things just start to pick up at school and here we go again. I know I should be taking care of him but I get so lost in the feelings of no control that it makes me crazy. I am so self absorbed in my frustration that I can't seem to find any compassion for him. I then isolate and detach because that becomes the only thing I can control. Trying to hide from a reality I can't handle. Hating myself for being so self absorbed that I am not able to have a healthy perspective. It becomes all about me until I find my way out so I can properly care about him. A crazy making roller coaster ride for both of us. I am under so much pressure these days that I just want something to go as it is suppose to go. I just wanted to start the week on track. There I go again... all about me. My son says that to me a lot. It's not always about you mom.