A friend of mine was told by the doctor that she has the same disease that her mother has and she only has 7yrs to live, her ex who also happens to be a good friend of mine is taking it a lot harder, all my friend wants to do now is take more drugs and drink more she says that there is no point in living life good anymore cause she only has 7yrs left any way she also says that she is being punished for killing her baby (she had an abortion) her ex is devasted by this he loves her more than anything and she wants to die and doesnt care any more and guess who is stuck in the middle again yip ME I don't mind that much but in times like this where I hate myself right now and all I want to do is think about all my crap, now I have to look after those 2 and deal with their problems, y am I such a magnit for people problems do I willing get myself in to these situations %#@&#! I hate it all right now I wish I could just leave everything behind and go away for awhile. Is it selfish of me to want to leave my friends and let them deal with their own problems am I that bad a person. I HATE IT ALL. %#@&#! I HATE THIS LIFE OF MINE.