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Old Mar 01, 2010, 03:18 PM
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Miss C Yes in my case the voices get louder when I am approaching a change in being. I this this is true for both the side of me that is resisting the change as well as the aspect of me that is wanting the change. In my case often the debating sides get very vocal as I approach my leap point.

I found Perna's comment interesting. When I first stated therapy I remember a lot of white noise in my head. It was like a radio playing on search mode. I'd hear a few bit of what an aspect of myself was thinking but then I'd jump to another station. I think some of this "station changing" was my way of blocking out thoughts that were unacceptable to me. Now, I can stay on one station (listen to what the small child is saying/feeling)long enough to get her message. But also like Perna mentioned I can tell which aspect is creating the chatter. There are times when I hear chatter that SOUNDS like its my T in my head but when I really stop and challenge it...its usually one of my own ego states "playing" my T. Not sure if that makes sense or not.

My problem at the moment is..accepting and acknowledging how some of my inner states feel and think. I don't like some of my inner people and even after all this time in therapy, I am resistant to discuss some of these thoughts and feelings with my T. I'm ashamed of them for thinking and wanting the things they do.