hmmmm....you went from manufacturing a rupture to trying to scare T away by your 'yukkiness'.
It seems like you are trying to push him away.

BUT! I have a feeling, he is not budging!

He is not like those people who pretended to care about you but really wanted to hurt you. You can tell him all your deepest darkest secrets, and he will still be there for you, still care about you, and treasure you as the precious person you are.

I think eventually through all your hard work with T you will come to accept that you are valuable and worthy of love.

I love that you put your pajamas on.
You are a darling, sweet ((((((((((Tree)))))))))))))

Feel better soon.