So I keep thinking about hurting myself in a very specific way, and it’s clearly a hugely irrational thought.
I cut my fingers down from the fingertip to the palm, cutting down to the bone. Then with that done I peel my flesh from my fingers leaving just the bones. This is the really irrational part, I then watch in amazement as I move my fingers (just the bones) like some sort of skeleton in a movie.
So the question I have is it better to have such a serious SI fantasy that I clearly know is impossible. Or would it be better if I had something less violent idea but something that would be possible. This question assumes that I have some control over what goes on in my head but I really don’t.
On a final note please don't try this at home----PLEASE
and I'm not going to do this today, or tomorrow.. hopefully never...