(((((((Shadow))))))))

Thanks so much- it means so much to me and all inside that you're on my side. There's so many people against me- important ones- like drs and T who choose how much pain i'm in and how safe i feel

It feels like everything is out of my control. It's so hard to go on living like this. i feel so stuck. we're panicking because we're stuck and there's no way out.

Thank you Everyone for helping by trying to give me hope that there will be a way out- a good dr. to treat me.
the relationship with T has hurt me so much.

Thank you, Shadow , for being on my side. most of the time i imagine that T and a lot of persons that i rell problems to hate/dislike me/are bugged because everything they say to encourage doesn't seem to help becase we have opposing parts. There's never a time when everyone is happy with anything. i just have to live with it

love, kerria