Me again.

I have tried to share this with just a few IRL ppl... but... I probably shouldn't have. Sigh. They react like I would to hearing someone's DOCTOR said they shouldn't be driving, ya know? Any background info sounds like excuses. 2 ppl were acquaintances in 2 different churches...

I go through swings of : yeah, I'll call my MD up and find out what and why... and that will put a seal on my NOT driving... to: I'll be patient and very careful this month, cut down on driving, but wait until I see the MD in 3 weeks to see if this can be worked out.... to: the heck with this! I'm tired of struggling with life and it only gets tougher and tougher and I get NOWHERE (feel like going what is it? 200 mph in NEUTRAL) I'm outta here! and then back to : I can't believe I'm in this position, I can't NOT drive... How am I going to figure this out? How can I get out of this well?