Found you :-)

Coping can be hard...
Hang in there. It will get better.
I'm not sure what you mean about harassing...
I think some people do email fairly frequently...
But then its up to him whether he reads them / responds to them or not.
Maybe have a bit of a think about how many you are sending...
But: Don't beat yourself up.
Really.
I think you do a better job of that than anybody else does.
And things aren't so bad.
You are okay :-)
And...
You are missed. Your friends can't wait for you to come back.
And even the people who were upset with your post...
They didn't like your posts
But its not that they don't like you as a person.

Anyways...
You have my email address.
You are welcome to email me if you would like...
Hang in there.
It has to get better.
Miss you.

(See what you have done - I had to come back here to talk to you!!!!!!)

(((((((Deneb))))))))

Take care.
And I am really glad that you are still hanging in there.

Oh...
And you do understand why you were blocked, right?
If not then I think I might be able to help you out there.
I think it was a fairly predictable consequence for something you had been warned about before.

But...
The blocking really is the only consequence.
And people are fairly typically happy to see people back once that is over.