i'm just worried. it hurts and it was making the gauze yellow and now it's making it green.

and i'm sick and getting orange fluid draining out of my nostril and have to go to the hospital anyway. i'm just avoiding going. i don't feel like it. i don't feel like sitting in the ER (i have no insurance.. so would have to be ER..) by myself.

i'm just worried if i tell them i did it to myself, considering my suicide attempt, they'll put me in the hospital against my will.