((((Fox))))

Awww----sorry you are feeling so bad. I know that when we get sick it can really take a toll on us. Sometimes we think we are well but our bodies tell us something different. Last year I got sick with mono and I did not think I was ever going to get better. It lasted for months and months before I finally got energy back and was able to function as before. When I talk months I mean 6 months or more. My body just could not fight it off and I felt so run down and tired I could hardly do anything.

As far as meds go, I know for me I have been on so many different meds (about 16 at once) and they were not doing anything. Being a multiple, there is no telling who is being affected by any med, and some did not think they needed it so they would not a lot of times even take the meds. So my doc took me off all psych meds because they were not being used right and that was more dangerous than taking something the way it was suppose to be taken.

I know that passive suicidal feeling and it is sometimes one of the worst places to be in. I am sorry you are feeling this way. Sometimes when things get so out of wack or control, it is hard to feel like you care not because you do not but because it takes so much energy to care. Hope you will talk about that with someone you trust.

Are you seeing a t or anyone? I know you do not have insurance but you can go through a clinic or something. Check with your city or town and see what they have to offer. Until then I hope you will keep reaching out here and letting us know how you are doing. Know that we care and are here for you. Thank you for posting. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps