Well, something today has changed the way I think, this whole stopping my meds has come at the worst possible time as almost a year ago (6/3/09) my beloved Dad died suddenly, so this month is not going to be easy, and if I full apart I would rather do it on the meds rather than off them.
The other reason is I think the psychiatrist wants to feel numb wants me to suffer, and then yesterday here I was thinking they are watching me (as if I was that important LOL) It dawned on me that the problem is me not THEM, I am the one with the irrational thoughts and why on earth would anyone be watching me?? I am still not 100% convinced, however I know now this is my own brain playing tricks on me its scary really scary. The fact I stopped my meds wasnt even rational it was based on irrational stuff and denial, I have bipolar FULLSTOP bipolar...