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Originally Posted by AShadow721
AHHHHH!!! I'm reading and rereading my posts in a voice my mother told me I used a lot as a child (but I didn't truly remember it until now). I can't stop it. This voice, it has an accent of the UK. Which country, I'm not sure. But when I just started READING over my last post, I read in this accent. When I was writing it was my normal voice, but reading, it's different. Has anyone ever had this experience? It's so odd. I do remember this voice, and I would say that it has a definite masculine feeling associated with it, like I would feel like I was a boy when I used this voice. It's quite odd and scary though. Well, I am not dxed with any dissociative disorders other than dissociative amnesia from my fourth grade year in elementary school and I do have PTSD and feel pretty dissociative nearly all the time.
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whoa, that must be so scary for you.
I didn't have much of what my therapist calls co - consciousness so I was never detecting differences in my voice vs my alternate personality voices. nor the thought pattern differences between my alters thoughts and mine. but from what I know and have read for my college classes and from the group therapy class that I just joined with my my therapist as teacher, I understand its normal for changes like this to happen and be noticeable with people who are DID. One time during group hen someone else was asking about this same thing I asked my therapist if she ever noticed whether I did this. She said all DID's go through switching personalities like this where there are subtle differences in how a person is in their conscious state and their altered state. she then did a kind of laugh and said that therapists pay attention to these subtle differences so they can detect when their clients have switched from their conscious state to their altered states and from altered states to other altered states. and she said its these subtle differences that allow psychiatrists to notice when someone has switched when undergoing diagnostic procedures.
Then she told me yes I did it too its not noticeable now that Im integrated because normal people also use those subtle changes in tone of voice to show their emotions. people normally talk different ways when they are stressed, angry sad, happy excited. So naturally when someone walls off their emotions into altered states those altered states carry the voices depicting the emotions that they carry with them. she gave us all a home work assignment. during this week we have to notice how we talk and write down in our journals our discoveries about ourself. whether or not we noticed these subtle differences, how recognizing emotions in our speech made us feel and write down what emotions we recognized and how we handled the situation.
did you call your therapist? what did they tell you about it? how do they want you to handle it?
