My life is sucking really bad right now. My T usually asks me at the beginning of the session coming through the door how I am. Normal I say I am fine, and she responds, really? Well I am NOT fine today!

My jerk of a husband thought it would be a nice fine gift to get me a spider necklace for my birthday. My kids knew about it and thought it would be funny but they don't know my history of abuse that had to do with spiders. My husband does though. So here I am waiting for my "late" present coming from ebay, thinking it must be a really neat gift, then I open one of my biggest triggers ever.

I told my husband that his has to be the meanest gift ever to give me or I guess the meanest would be a picture of my mom in a locket or something like that. He said he "forgot" and didn't realize it. Well I asked him what women does he know would actually like receiving a dead real spider necklace? Even if he forgot the abuse, he knows I have a huge phobia of spiders. I hate him right now. My marriage has not been great for a long time now, but I never thought he would do something like this. What a creep.

So what do I do in therapy today? Put all my hot issues in a bag and let her draw out a topic to start today's session? I have a concert and a solo coming up next week which I know we should work on in therapy today plus the issue with my old T. I just feel like all the crap in my life is piling up on top of my chest and I can't breathe. I just need some relief because I don't think I can go on like this.