Or maybe angry at myself? I don't know... Usually I am good at figuring my feeling out, but I just feel so confused.

I am really ashamed and anxious right now because it turned into a browish scab and it is all red. I don't want anyone to see it because I have no explanation. I will have to make something up if anyone asks me how I got the scratch.

I feel so stupid for doing it.

Sannah, I may be misinterpreting your tone because through message boards we can't get the tone that you are trying to convey. Forgive me if I am wrong, but you sound like you are writing in a challenging way. Like you are judging me. I am sorry if I misinterpreted that... I do appreciate the responses. I am confused at what you are trying to say.