I am amazed, too. I said it! In person! Out loud! I'm so proud of me.

And thank you all for your responses, it's so validating. My T said today that I need to reinforce myself more, and find other people to reinforce me so when I share things w/them that are big and personal for me, they can be my cheerleaders. <--closest thing I could find to a cheerleader :P

So I told her about this place, it's really the first time I've mentioned it to her, and I didn't use the name because , but I told her "I'm part of an online community of other people in therapy and they DO reinforce me, a lot." And I also shared with her how coming here and contributing, not just getting support when I need it but offering support too, is doing one of the DBT skills and gives even MORE back to me. She was happy.