So, we went to our first therapy session and i thought it went rather well. We both really liked the therapist and felt comfortable talking to her. The only issue i had was i didn't get to talk about the issues i had in mind enough. He mostly took the lead cuz he assumed i wouldn't be comfortable with talking. The therapist told us we have very different communication styles and i agree. She said we need to practice listening to each other more and ask a lot of questions. She gave us a paper on some exercises to try. We failed so bad at trying. We have not practiced anything from the worksheet at all.

A little bit of time after the session ended, we found ourselves in another misunderstanding. This time, he misunderstood me and refused to admit it so i got upset cuz he was putting all the blame on me like he usually does. He thought i was saying that i expected us to overcome all of our issues overnight (and i think that's ridiculous). I only meant that i was disappointed with how little progress we have made in the past 6 months of living together. So, we ended up not speaking to each other for an entire day and then we made up and the next day when i got home from work he made me feel guilty for needing time to myself cuz i didn't have such a good day at work. He assumed that i never wanted to spend time with him. I also brought up that i was miserable cuz he still didn't have a job and he got upset with me. I don't feel comfortable telling him the truth cuz he gets angry when i do attempt to talk to him about my issues.

I think we are going to end up going our seperate ways. I'm sad that it is coming to this, but i can't continue feeling this miserable on a daily basis. I feel like i can't even talk to him anymore. He takes most things i say as an attack and gets all upset. Then he belittles me and tells me how i think. This is just not a healthy relationship at all. He got all upset at me last night when i told him that i need for it to be over between us and he didn't take my words seriously. He never seems to take me seriously. He refused to pay me rent for this month and so i told him if he won't pay then he has to make arrangements to leave this week. I really hope he will just go so we can get on with out lives.